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Apathy – Level 50/1000

Apathy is a level of consciousness that is characterized by poverty, neglect, hopelessness, and despair.

I was once at a level of severe grief and apathy in late 2015. I have manic-depression and I was coming down from a manic episode. It took me about 4 months to see light at the end of the tunnel. People who have apathy have a “why bother trying” mentality.

In my therapy groups, I have witnessed clients who are going through apathy. This state can be induced by mind-numbing medication. Low states are also the result of the law of rhythm and ego backlash. When we have glimpses into our true nature and merge with oneness, the downward spiral can have us wishing to return to a more nirvanic state.

Euphoria is often followed by dysphoria. The opposite is also true. To rise above the depression that an apathetic person is at, one must allow themselves to feel the feeling fully so it can be released. When I went through the dark night of the soul, I allowed myself to withdraw from my life so I could sleep and heal. Depression could also be called “deep rest”. We go through life in seasons, there is a season to be depressed, and a season to be in bliss.

Most of life feels normal, but this normal feeling is usually at your baseline level of being. My baseline consciousness is about 220-250 on the scale of consciousness. With a mindfulness practice and going higher through surrender, I can reach higher states for short amounts of time. In higher states, life is effortless. In lower states, we feel like we must make a huge effort to get things done.

I’m a believer in goal free living.

Someone with apathy may not be in a place to set goals. The reality is the feminine way of operating with the law of attraction is far more powerful than using the masculine way. I believe in trusting the universe and allowing the bigger picture to take care of itself. Your states of consciousness are all tools for a certain job. While in high states it’s common to get attached to the joy and bliss and when it begins to recede and lower back to normal, this can result in intense boredom.

People who are at levels 200-250 struggle with boredom. As I make this article I’m about neutral which is actually good for writing. When I wrote my last article, I felt a lot of bliss and my connection with life was more profound.

The power of now is a concept that states there are no problems until you are in position to fix them. To solve problems on the outside takes effort, but if you are in a serene state, the problems will dis-solve.

The apathetic condition will invoke the law of attraction to create circumstances to bring about more and more apathy.

People who are stuck in a hell like level of being like apathy are far less likely to get over their inertia. Action over inertia is a huge part of rising above depression. You have to give yourself a reason to feel good.

The bottom line is that true joy requires no reasons. Reason is a level of being that is around 375-400 on the scale of consciousness. To have faith in the divine requires reasons to, self-belief also requires reason. Logic is strong in the 3-400’s and one will be able to come up with a very reasonable way of looking at life. Serenity is needed to access reason fully. Once one is in a state of true nirvanic bliss, reason takes a backseat.

I’m on the autism spectrum with Asperger’s Syndrome, my soul is very powerful in the realm of reason. I was able to solve arithmetic at age 6 and could read at age 4. The older the soul, the faster one will become their soul’s expression.

Many older souls struggle to fit in on Earth because the energetic expressions are higher in an older soul’s higher reality. Re-incarnation is the return on soul-information. The soul doesn’t re-incarnate per se, but consciousness is in all beings. The soul is like a memory stick. All people are a unique expression, but the energy of souls move from life to life. The linear timeline makes us think we move forward in time, but the soul is not time-bound. The mind-body is timebound, but the soul can reincarnate from the past or the future.

Old souls are not interested in money or status, they are more interested in knowledge, minimalism, and inner peace. The older the soul the more depressing the world can seem. Coming from higher dimensions and incarnating onto a vibratory plane like Earth can require a huge adjustment.

Apathy is treated best through behavioral activation. This means engaging in simple but meaningful activity. To feel sad requires one to elevate their state to grief. Anger is an upgrade to this level of consciousness as well. To feel sadness is to let a lot of pent-up feelings go. Feeling angry is another way to release negative energy. Expression of your true state will help with transcendence.

Honesty and courage are a massive part of making conscious breakthroughs. Honesty is the ability to say what you think and not keep secrets. The 5^th chakra can get blocked from lying to oneself or others. If you feel low, don’t try to escape the state, explore it instead. The honest and authentic responses to reality will allow one to get higher access to better states. Higher states also facilitate honesty.

The Dualities of Apathy

Attractions and Aversions

Blame – Ownership

I can’t – I won’t

Victimhood – Co-Creator

Indifference – Caring

Defeatist – Optimist

Excuses – Action

Helpless – Able

Hopeless – Hopeful

Negate Self Worth – Self Worth as God

Weakness – Strength

Refuse Solutions – Accepting

Self-Sabotage – Self Endorsement

Sloth – Energy of Action

Cynical – Trusting

Unworthiness – Valuing Self

Future is Bleak – Future Opportunity

Incapable – Willing to Learn

Rigid – Flexible

Passive – Active

Reject Help – Accept Help

Self-Pity – Compassion

Clinging – Surrender

Self-Indulgence – Moving on

Excuse – Self-Honesty

Sink Lower – Move Up

Succumb – Resist

Until Next Time,

Angus Baynham-McColl

Guilt – Level 30 of 1000

Guilt is self blame for our own transgressions. People who feel guilt often have a past that they haven’t let go of. My theory on guilt is that if you feel guilty all the time, you will repeatedly do things that make you feel guilty. The law of attraction gives us a reflection of our inner state. So people who are self-condemning will make their own hell because they haven’t forgiven themselves.

I believe you don’t ask for forgiveness from God for your own sake. You simply forgive yourself for God’s sake. Everything about letting go is all about forgiveness and taking 100% response-ability. You always choose how to respond to phenomena. Life arises and carries you on an eternal journey. Everyone I know has felt guilt before. In my past I have felt guilt, but I am fast to forgive, learn the lesson, and keep moving forward.

Hell is a place and state of being, and happiness is an inside job. Life will never give you more grief than you can handle. Healing yourself from sin and guilt starts with the intention to move forward and forgive. People who feel guilt will blame themselves for things that they weren’t even responsible for. It’s unreasonable to guilt yourself for things you couldn’t manage.

The basis of forgiveness is to understand that we always do what we know to be best. I forgive people on the sole basis that I always know that the person who sinned missed the mark. To sin is to make an error. When you are enlightened, you understand that nothing is ever a mistake. There are no errors. The perfection of life is such that every bad thing is a contribution to the greater good. This can be direct or indirect.

I have been guilty of making bad decisions in my past, but they have always corrected themselves as I have healed more and more of my resistance. Lower states of consciousness always come from inner resistance. To heal is to let go and make happy.

Gratitude is 50% of the power of the law of attraction. All states have power, and guilt is no different. The state arises and nothing can be done about it. Simply being is enough to purge whatever is afflicting you. There is no absolute affliction, people who hold guilt will do damage to their body because illness is a blockage of energy. This is not an issue though, once you release the blocks of energy, the illness will go away.

I have bipolar, but have been in remission for a year because my medication is good at keeping me on the straight and narrow. I used to have side effects from my medication, but since I forgave myself for my mistakes and absolved my guilt, I healed. Side effects from meds indicate the illness hasn’t been surrendered. To use meds as a means to heal is fine. Western medicine is very effective, but the inner work is still an important part of personal change. Once you understand the nature of your illness, the light of awareness will bring what you need to deal with to the surface so it can be let go of.

Side-effects are part of the package for anything including positive developments. I have a Dog who I love, but the side effect is the fact that I have to walk him even if I don’t always feel like it. This idea that life is mundane and mystical is to understand that we have things we don’t want to do. I’m serene and have inner peace, but I still have to get the laundry done. Getting back to chopping wood and carrying water is part of the integration process. Sweet surrender is good, but states will always be subject to the laws of polarity and rhythm.

Once ego has been surrendered fully, guilt will melt away and often what happens will be a remission of physical illness. All illness is energy blocks. I think that following the path of least resistance as much as possible is the best way to go about the journey of life.

You will heal as you teach people to heal.

I’m a life coach and I would sometimes feel guilty that I didn’t help my client enough. My feeling was that I failed, but what I didn’t realize the whole time was that I healed my deficits in empathy as I set the intention to coach and teach. My clients and I exchanged communication and energy. Since we are all the same and are just different versions of each-other, I actually learned after 3 years of coaching that I am the perfect student I always desired as a coach.

All my students are perfect, and they have been my best teachers. There was nothing wrong with my clients at all, they were with me to show me the things I had to heal within myself. As I healed I realized my clients were mirrors for me to learn more and see what needed to heal. I was the recipient of their gift to the world. I think looking back I helped my clients tremendously over the last 3 years. Maybe in ways I will never be able to comprehend.

You can only ever meet people where you and they are at. I always bring my power of now presence to coaching sessions and allow my higher self to guide me through the discussion. The higher self of the client and my own higher self collaborate to facilitate the exchange that works for our greatest good.

I never come to a session knowing how it will play out, and it often never ends up being what I imagine it to be. Sometimes it’s a matter of personal discussion and I often just want to listen with intent and presence. My serenity is contagious as I hold space for the client to release what is in mind. I have ESP so I finish sentences and laugh before the joke becomes a part of the sentence. We all have different gifts and we are all geniuses at heart.

My goal is to be my genuine self as this is my greatest gift to the world.

The Dualities of Guilt and Hate

Attractions and Aversions

Make Judgement – Surrender Judgment to God

Punishment – Forgiveness

Refuse Mercy – Accept Mercy and Compassion

Justify Negativity – Surrender Secret Pleasure

Project Feelings – Take Responsibility

Choose Perception – Choose Essence

Narrow View – Seeing Both Sides

Penance – Service to Others

Cling to Position – Ask God for Miracles

Act out – Transcend

Enjoy Meanness – Be Gracious

Act Against Self and Others – Act to Help Self and Others

Choose the Negative – Choose the Positive

Be Right – Be Wrong

Stuck – Growth

Reinforce – Let go and Transcend

Stuck in the Past – Live in the Now

Cruel – Merciful

Stingy – Benevolant

Project Responsibility – Choose Authority

Vengeful – Merciful

Be Small – Choose Bigger than That

Hope you enjoyed todays read!

Until next time,

Angus Baynham-McColl

What is Shame?

Shame is the lowest level of consciousness on the scale that Dr. David Hawkins created.

Shame – (1-20/1000) – Despair

People that embody shame who are dominantly at this level of consciousness are experiencing severe humiliation and embarrassment.

People who are at the level of shame wind up becoming paranoid, so they sometimes kill people. Other times they commit suicide. People at a 10-20 consciousness level will also end up committing crimes such as rape, and often become moral extremists.

Think of people who join terrorist organizations. They are at this level of consciousness. Elliott Rodger was a school shooter from 2014, he was a prime example of someone who was at the lowest level of consciousness.

People who vibe at this level of consciousness are always filled with hatred.

Shame is behind the fear of rejection, disapproval or failure.

People who are stuck at this hellish level have often experienced severe abuse or neglect. They will never be honest enough to take any responsibility for their state. Shameful people always see themselves as the victim. Unless the persons child-hood issues are resolved through therapy or coaching, their personality will be ruined for life. Shame produces neurosis.

Shame is often a way to inflict cruelty. Children who are ashamed get shamed by others. They will often inflict cruelty towards animals and other children. Bullies are insecure and they bully people who make for easy targets. Often bullies are bullied by worse bullies. People who are ashamed are at risk to develop health issues. Level consciousness 10-20 represents a very shy and introverted person. They also insult themselves often.

People who have consciousness in the 10-20’s are dangerous, they will have accusatory hallucinations some of the time. They are likely to have paranoid delusions along with their shame. These people can become psychotic and commit terrible crimes.

Sometimes shame based individuals compensate for their shame through perfectionism.

Severe depression can be a dangerous and immobile level of consciousness. Despair is characterized by having no hope and feeling helpless to make their life better. This state is a dis-spiritual state and hellish to endure. The will to live is totally lost, and the thought of suicide is sometimes not possible due to a lack of energy. The reason anti-depressants can lead a person to commit suicide is because they elevate a shameful persons state up to a level above apathy. With this extra energy, depressed people are more likely to end their life.

Shame is reflective of self-hatred and when turned outward can result in homicidal ideation and action. It’s noticeable that many classmate shooters were on anti-depressants. Depression changes the brains chemistry, and neurotransmitters such as serotonin are much lower in a depressed person. Severe-depression makes a person more vulnerable to alcoholism. Many people with depression have recovered by eliminating sugar.

At the bottom of despair, there is exhaustion and even a far weaker will to live. It’s often only in the deepest pits of hell that one can surrender their ego. In extreme agony, a call for help to God can lead to a great transformation. Heaven and hell are an inch apart.

The Dualities of Shame

Attractions & Aversions

Self-Punishment Vs Self-Forgiveness

Depression Vs Choosing Life

Judgmental Vs Surrendering to God’s Mercy

Negativity Vs Letting Go of Position

Hiding Vs Being Visible

Self-worthlessness Vs Affirming the Gift of Life

Rigid Self-view Vs Flexibility

Condemnation Vs Forgiveness

Mortification Vs Choosing Self-Worth

Denigrate Vs Honoring Self

Hate Vs Forgiveness

Severe Vs Benign

Self-Blame Vs Blame ego’s Ignorance

Exaggerate Faults Vs Transcend Limitations

Partial Selective View Vs Balanced Overall View

Self as Loser Vs Self as Corrected

End of the Road Vs New Beginning

Unlovable Vs Worth as a Child of God

Error Unforgivable Vs Error as Lesson

Narcissistic Orientation Vs Concern for Others

Serve Self Vs Serve Life

Indulgent Self-Evaluation Vs Letting Go of the Ego’s Position

Self as Center of Life Vs Self as a Participant of Life

Should Have Vs Not Able Then

This extensive list covers some opposing states of being and outlook, people who have shame will always see the worst from reality. Guilt has no place in a happy person’s soul. Shame is very destructive and can only be solved with intensive help from a qualified therapist. Life coaches shouldn’t work with people who are in a state of shame.

Love and empathy towards people at this level is paramount. Compassion is more helpful than giving a person in this state advice. Best way to help is to do the following 4 things. These will make the person feel better.

1. Shut up
2. Listen
3. Don’t Fix
4. Don’t Judge

This is all for this article.

Until next time,

Angus Baynham-McColl